|Taking you into my world|
Look, if you nicely tell me that swearing makes you uncomfortable and you politely ask me not to, I will stop immediately and speak nicer than a nun.
But if you start acting like you’re on some fucking high horse, or telling me that I’m going to Hell for talking the way that I do and you can’t “be around that kind of language” then you can bet your motherfuckin’ ass that I’ll be fucking cussing like a cunt-fuckin’ sailor you maggot-ridden piece of dick.
this is really selfish but
why can’t mental illness be like any other kind of sickness where you go to hospital and your loved ones come and give you flowers and tell you that they love you and hold your hand and make sure you get better
why doesn’t that happen instead of awkward silences and embarrassing tears and messy bedsheets and a bunch of other stuff no one actually talks about
w h y
I can’t find a single selfish thing in that.
Day 15; Have you ever changed your opinions, depending on the people you are with?
I try not too, But if like I get shut down I’ll just kind of be on the fence from then on. Not that I voice my opinion much.
Day 16: Does your style (clothing, hair, etc.) change a lot?
Yes. Its like I am always trying to find myself.
Day 17: What are five of your biggest fears?
Being in the Dark. No so much the dark itself but whats inside.
Failing. Letting people down. Crows. Recovery.
Day 18: Do you worry what people think of you?
Day 19: What are some lyrics that describe what you’re going through right now?
I can’t list just certain lyrics but Maria Mena’s songs are usually on key.
Day 20: How do you usually express yourself?
I don’t really express to other people. I sing alone alot. I go on tumblr.
20th May 2013
I am so close to that weight. The one I said if I were ever to reach again, I would kill myself because I don’t ever want to be so heavy again. I don’t think anyone realises just how distressed my weight makes me.
“You look fine” or “I don’t know what you’re worried about” or…
I wouldn’t usually Reblog someones diary post but I am feeling like this at the moment.